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my family flew out to new york for Christmas, and today is the day i tell them im supper nervous because i know something is going to go down. solange is here she is 17 . she is staying with me for now my mom and dad went to a hotel but right now we just got done opening presents . and jay got me everything i wanted because i've been sending signals out for example he got me the new car i wanted , this new shirt i cant really describe it but its beautiful and i wanted it so bad and he got it for me, i also got him this 4.5 million dollar watch i must of been out of my mind but the smile on his face showed me it was worth it so im not worried about it. kelly is here also (i decided to take me and Michelle out of this blog) with her new boy friend i think his name is  Donovan i dont know. i wasnt ready to tell them yet so i walked over to where kelly and donovan was laughing all hard and what not

(bey)what are we laughing about

(kelly)oh nothing 

(bey)mmhhmm 

(kelly)so did you tell them yet

(bey)noo not yet

(kelly)what you waiting for

(bey)i dont know

(kelly)just do it ill be right there with you 

(bey)fine come on

i called everyone gather around and me jay and kelly got in the middle of the circle that was around us . my knees was shaking from being so nervous and scared i made small talk and everything then i got right to the point when the words im pregnant came out my mouth my mom mouth dropped and i could of sworn my dads eyes got red i knew he was about to let me have it solange was excited i knew she was my cousin's angie and kayla and also ty was happy for me

(ty)why am i just finding this out i bet kelly knew didnt she?

(kelly)show did now what

(ty)dont make me..

(kelly)can hit a female remember your still a male

(ty) not after what i did last night

(bey)ewww disgusting

(ty)anywho how far along are you

(bey)5 months now

(angie)damn you cant really notice

(kayla)yea it just look like you been eating alot and you getting a gut

(bey)really..?

(kayla)yup but it nothing to be sad about

(ty)yea your gonna be a mommy again

(bey)i know

(matthew)beyonce me and your mother needs to speak with you

oh lord here it comes i wasnt going alone so i grabbed jay hand because he is the father of this baby anyways we went in one of the guestrooms in the house and i stood my the door with jay my mother went and sat on the couch and my father walked back and forth .i was just standing there already crying because  knew this wasnt gonna be pretty because my father looked HEATED.he stopped and i braced myself for what was finna happen i wiped my eyes and he beagn to speak.

(matthew)im very disappointed in you 

(bey)daddy im sorry its just that ..

(matthew)save it . beyonce you are not ready and i repeat NOT ready for another child i mean just look at what happened to Anthony

(bey)why did you have to bring that up i know what happened ok

(matthew) obviously you dont. you are not responsible enough you raise a child 

(bey)what happened to anthony was not my fault and you know that dad you let him put his hands on me i told you over and over about lyndell ass and the things he did and what did you do.... nothing so how dare you tell me im not responsible to raise a child im 24 years old and that means im a grown ass women so if you cant live with the fact that im 24 and im grown the ch.. i dont know what to tell you

(tina)now bey thats still your father dont talk to him like that

(bey)mmm whatever you can make your way to the door im going to bed come one jay

bey went in the room while i told everyone that we were going to bed . everyone left except solo she was in the room talking to bey  i didnt want to interrupt so i went to sit on the couch

me and solo was talking and i really can tell she is excited . now that she is older she might be more responsible and gentle . we talked about everything that happened just now between me and my father and then i dont know how but we started talking bout her and Daniel having sex and tha t she MIGHT be pregnant .and that is the last thing i need is for my little sister to be pregnant . my father is going to think she learned it from me because i was around her age when i had Anthony but she does not have to follow in my footsteps i should have been more careful like i am now . after me and solange finish talking she went in the guestroom and went to talk to daniel . jay came back in the room and we talked until we feel asleep

3 months later...

its been 3 months ever since the stuff that happened with my father. i have forgivin my father verbally but mentally and emotionally. im still hurt about what he said he acted like it was my fault that anthony got tooken away . anyways i went to the hospital yesterday me and jay. we went to find out the sex of the baby and we are having a baby girl . im happy i've always wanted a girl .im naming her giselle beyince carter beyince is my mom real last name its creole . today me and jay went his mom house and i love hr she made me all this extra food just for the baby . ive been staying out of the spot light the world dosent know im pregnant but tomorrow is the BET AWARDS and im nominated oh yeah i released my second album on my birthday it was titled "BDAY" it sold out in under 60 seconds again another number one album smh rihanna needs to step it up anywho. me and jay really didnt do anything today . the next morning i woke up early to start my day i had hair and make up that needed to get done . its took about 2 hours then i changed into this long Orange dressed. im excited to show the world . when we arrived i walked the carpet 

when they saw my belly they went nuts it was crazy! by the end of the night i took home 5 awards im still shocked how jay brung me all this success without him i would still be working at that fast food place. its only been bout 4 hours ever since i told the world and it all over the news , internet everywhere

(jay)i guess you really made a name for yourself

(bey)hmmmm i guess soo

(jay)there is someone i want you to meet he is a little young but he loves you and i think you would love to meet him i think yall know each other

(bey)who

(jay)come on out!

my mouth dropped to the floor omg i love jay so much

to be continued