BACK TOGETHER

the next morning i woke up to 4 missed calls from shawn he left me a text message saying for me to let him explain i didnt want to hear it so i just ignorded it and took a shower then got dressed and went downstars to eat braekfast . my mom was down there cooking  and it smelled good i walked in and grabbed a piece of backon that was on the napkin and sat on the stool in the kitchen. my mom could tell something was wrong with me so she asked
(tina)whats wrong baby
(bey)mama shawn lied to me
(tina)how..? what happened
(bey)he said he would be 100% faithful to me and never hurt me and then yeaterday i heard him say i love you too baby to someone on the phone then i told him to leave and thats why he is not here
(tina)did you let him explain it could of been a family member or something
(bey)and call them baby?
(tina)do he have kids
(bey)not that i know of
(tina)i dont know let him explain go in that rooom and talk to him because i really like him bey i can tell he is a good man
(bey)ok mama
i went in the room and i was kinda nervouse about calling him but i did. the phone rang only twice and he answered
(shawn)bey please let me explain
(bey)im waiting
(shawn)ok well bey i wasnt cheating on you that was my neice she was calling and telling me about her puppy my sister got for her
(bey)i never knew you had a niece
(shawn)yes she is only 5
(bey)aww jay im so sorry baby i should have listened im so stupid can you please forgive me and take me back
(shawn)i never lost you
(bey)i love you
(shawn)i love you too
(bey)i wanna meet her whats her name
(shawn)her name is maya
(bey)awww which one of your sisters had her
(shawn)annie
(bey)oh baby i want you  to come back
(shawn)i never left i just went to a hotel down the street
(bey)well could you come back
(shawn)im on my way
(bey)ok babe
im glad she let me explain to her because i would have lost the love of my life over this and over something that i didnt do i would never cheat on her she is everything to me these past year i fell in love with a angel she is completely beautiful funny and everything you could ever want in a women. but anyways i got back to the house around 5 pm i came late because i fell asleep after i talked to bey . when she saw me she ran in my arms i lifted her up in the air and kissed her on the lips i put her down and she just hugged me and told me how sorry she was i just hugged her and then we went in the house .. me and her dad talked and it turns out that he likes me and we are cool and im happy about that .2 days have past and were back in new york and today im taking bey to meet my niece  bey was sick though she had a cold so my niece was going to come over just for a little while .. 30 minutes later my niece came over and met bey then she left so she wont get sick .. for the past few day i've been taking care of her ever since she has been sick and i dont mind i mean ill do anything for her i love her aot but i got to get back to work i've been taking off so i can cater to her while she was sick she is getting a little better but she still got a bad cough and and running nose.. me and bey dont live together but alot of my stuff is at her house and alot of her stuff is at my house she stays over here most of the time so its like this is our house the only time she really go home is to get more clothes or something anyways right now bey is sleeping and im about to take a shower then make her some food  ... i took a shower for about 10 minutes then i went to starts making her food 20 minutes later i guess she smelled it cooking because she came walking down the stairs wrapped up in the blanket then went and sat on the couch i went over there and hugged her then kissed her on the forehead and said i loved her then i went back and finished cooking after about a hour it was done and she ate then got up and took a bath and put on some pj's because she wanted to stay in the house . i changed into some pj's and we spent the day together watching movies on the couch

god i love this man to death he does any and everything for me and thats one thing i loved about him he dont even have to buy me anything just him being here right now and taking care of me while im sick is enough im thinking about moving in but i dont know how he feels about it i mean im ready to move in because we been together for a while now and i feel that everything is going good right now and im ready to live with him i mean its already like i do becasue alot of my things are here .. our relationship is something serious and real we never had sex yet... well we tried it but i decided to stop him becase i wasnt ready and i love how he is willing to wait on me some dudes would just walk away if you not willing to give it up whenever they  ask but now im being more carefull of who i have sex with because i dont want to get pregnant and then have my baby tooken away from me again . i still think about my son i dont know who has him or where he is all i know is that he aint with me and that makes me so sad he would be about 5 right now and he would be going to school i miss him so much ughh i fucking hate lyndell i felt myself about to  tear up and shawn noticed and asked me what was wrong and i said nothing he looked at me and knew i was lying he asked me again and i just balled i cried and cried and then i told him about my son he said "bey dont worry about it ok we will have a child of our own that is never gonna get tooken away from us i promise baby" i wiped my eyes and said "ok baby" i still miss him even though what jay said lifted my spirts i still miss my first born . A WEEK PAST and im better im not sick anymore i've been releasing singles and going to practice for this movie imma be in called carmen i was happy... its called a "hip hopera" it should be cool mos def, bow wow, mekhi phifer and i was in the movie it should be a great movie its fun im playing carmen and she is like a groupie hoe that seduces this officer "officer hill" they start a relationship but carmen want to go to LA to live her dreams and hill dont want to go to LA and whatever then carmen and her two friends go to this fortune teller and they tell carmen she is going to die and at the end of the movie she gets shot and die im excited i've always wanted to be in movies shawn was a big part of this he helped me get this of course i had to adution and i got the part . me and jay tried to have sex that night but i stopped him again because im still not ready to give myself to him i mean like he saw me naked before and i saw him naked before its just im not ready to go there with him . tonight when i get home imma talk to jay about moving in . right now im with tyty and we are shopping for a dress that im wearing for the awards show that  is coming up we are in the mall and im trying on this pink strapless dress
(bey)what about this one
(tyty)no i dont like that one
(bey)ughh fine
i went back into the dressing room and tried on a few more after about 5 dresses i found one that was perfect . after that me and ty went out for lunch then we parted ways and i went home well to jay house when i got  there jay was sleep on the couch so i just went in the room and took my shoes and my pants off and layed in bed and watched a movie  i wasnt sleepy i just felt like laying in bed because i've been working all day .. a few hours later i got up and went downstairs and jay was still sleep i went to get something to drink and he crept up on me and grabbed me by my waist and kissed me
(shawn)when did you get home
(bey)a few hours ago 
(shawn)oh how was work
(bey)the usual
(shawn)oh nothing exciting
(bey)no not really
(shawn)oh ok well hmmmm you want to do something to night something fun?
(bey)of course but what kinda fun are we talking about *winks*
(shawn)not the same fun your talking about
(bey)*giggles* ok well what do you have planned?
(shawn)i dont know yet like we can drive around and find somewhere that will look cool
(bey)umm ok baby 
(shawn)ok put were your pants at
(bey)i took the off
(shawn)why
(bey)becasue i was hot and i needed to get out them hot pants and i like laying in the bed with my panties on its comfortable
(shawn)if you say so 
bey was looking good in her t-shirt and panties i mean i saw her in her panties before its just she looked extra good today but i didnt try anything even though i wanted to . she got her a soda and went back in the room i stayed down stairs and watched a football game then i went upstairs with bey and she was watching a low down dirty shame and she was laughing hard i love her laugh for some reason (i do too)   i layed in bed with her and she looked at me and started kissing me then she stopped and started watching the movie again.. when the movie went off bey said she needed to talk to me 
(shawn)ok 
(bey)well..... shawn how do you feel about me living with you like us in the same house perminatly 
(shawn)bey you know i would love that 
(bey)ok well im ready to movie in with you
(shawn)you sure you know im willing to wait on you
(bey)yes im sure but im still going to keep my apartment just in case we dont last
(shawn)i understand 
me and shawn talked some more then we got dressed in something not too fancy but some where around there lol im kidding not really i just wore my regular heels and some shorts and a shirt and this hat with my ray banns shawn got dressed im not gone go into detail about what he wore because its not important right lol but anyways me and shawn drove around and we found this night club that looked low-key we went in side and nobody noticed us there was no fans running  up to us no nothing we got really drunk that night the we couldn't even drive back home we had to call Julius to come get us and take us home. when we got home i went straight to the kitchen and made me and shawn another drink then i turn on some music real loud and me and shawn had our own little party it was fun as hell .. we feel sleep on the floor in the living room. the next morning i woke  with  a hangover i went in the medicine cabin and took a aspirin when jay woke up he was fine and i was so confused because we both was pissy drunk oh well. like i said i cant handle my liquor . my fone was in the room and when i got up there i had a message from a number that i recognized its just that i dont know who it is the text message said " so you come here with random niggas and dont come see me?" right then and there i knew that was lyndell and my whole mood changed i went downstairs and i felt kinda mad because he was still  messing with me like what the fuck move on damn i sat on the couch and jay knew something was wrong so it was no need to hide it 
(shawn)whats wrong bey
(bey)my ex lyndell
(shawn)what about him
(bey)he texted me
(shawn)what did he say
(bey)well you know when we went to houston he was like why didnt i come see him i dont know how he knew i was in houston someone must have told him
(shawn)oh dont text him back 
(bey)trust me im not 
(shawn)ok
(bey)oh baby umm.tyty coming over
(shawn)oh lord 
(bey)*giggles*he is not that bad
(shawn)yea and ciara can sing better then you
(bey)*laughs*shut up boy
me and jay got dressed and we ate somthing and then we played around like some 5 year olds and then ty came over he had another dude with him and he was nice looking . him and ty was holding hand i knew that . thats was his new boyfriend for the week . lol tyty always changing his boyfriend every week.. i let them in the house and they sat on the couch
(bey)so this is your boyfriend for this week huh?
(tyty)yup his name is brian
(bey)hey brian
(brian)hey
(tyty)omg girlllllllllll.. let me tell you so like i was in the store not to long ago and i saw these cute ass heels i was gone get them but they aint have them in my size but i took a picture of them 
(bey)let me see
(tyty)*shows her the picture*
(brian)them shoes are ugly as hell
(tyty)excuse him he is a ass
(bey)lol ok but they are cute though
(tyty) i know 
(brain)um beyonce do you have a bathroom
(tyty)of course they have a bathroom what do you think they piss and shit outside
(bey)TY!! stop being so damn mean
(tyty)whatever
(bey)but anyways got down the hall and its the second door on your right
(brain)ok thanks
(tyty)so bey where is yo boyfriend 
(bey)he went in the room
(tyty)that nigga aint want to see me or something
(bey)lol i dont know he dont want to hear us talking i guess
(tyty)whatever tell him to bring his ass out here
i went in the room and jay was laying across the bed watching spongebob i started laughing because i never knew he watched that i went over to him and i sat on his back and started massaging his shoulder and kissing his neck he turned around and i was on top of him and i kissed him on his lips for about 5 minutes then i broke the kiss
(bey)babe ?
(shawn)wassup
(bey)come in there with us please
(shawn)no
(bey)why not 
(shawn)because tyty is a faget and he always flirting with me
(bey)but his new boyfriend is here 
(shawn)no bey
(bey)*pouts*
(shawn)are you pouting
(bey)leave me alone
(shawn)ughhhh fine 
(bey)yay thanks babe
me and bey went in the living room and ty and his new boyfriend was kissing all over each other until ty saw me and then he pushed his dude off and said hey baby to me after i heard that i went back in the room
(bey)why did you do that ty
(tyty)to make him mad
(bey)you are something eles lol
me and tyty and brian talked somemore i swear tyty is something eles lol after they left i went in the room with jay and we cuddled up together and talked around like 5 something we went and got something from my house and then came back . we both didnt feel like cooking so we ordered some pizza and watched tv and made out (no sex) and we was play fighting then were got worn out so we took a shower and feel asleep

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