Explain .?

I quickly raised my head from Kelly shoulder thinking the doctor was gonna say that he was either fine or dead

(Bey) *sighs* he is dead isn't he
(Doctor) not quiet but he is in a slight coma and we don't know when he is gonna come back to reality
(Bey) *eyes watering* can I go see him?
(Doctor) sure you want to come also ma'am*to kelly*
(Kelly) *looks at bey then the doctor* yes I do

Kelly held on to my hand as we walked the hall to where jay was I didn't want to see him Hooked up to no Machine helpless I just couldn't see my husband like that

When the doctor Open the door I quickly ran to his bed side and cries while I hugged him

(Mariah)
I can't believe jay is in the hospital I'm glad I decided to watch the news tonight I have to go see him and make sure he is okay

I arrived at the hospital and asked what room was he in and they said 44 I walked into the room and my heart sank to my ass when I saw beyonce and Kelly because I don't know if they knew what happened with me and jay

(Mariah) *nervous* hi bey
(Bey) *looks at her and wipes her face* bitch that's mrs.carter to you and remember that shit next time you try to fuck my man *gets up and starts walking up to her* I can't believe you had the nerves to bring yo Lyin stankin ass down here to see my husband knowing damn well you ain't pregnant by that man right there *points to jay* that only women that's pregnant by Shawn Corey carter is beyonce Giselle knowles carter ok bitch now I advise you to leave now
(Mariah) whoa bitch who the fuck you talking to?

(Kelly)
Bitch? I know she aint just call bey no bitch oh hell no

(Kelly) I know you ain't just call her a bitch
(Mariah) shut the fuck up

(Kelly)
This hoe got the right one today I'm mad as hell and I want to fuck somebody up right now so here is my opportunity

(Kelly) *gets in her face* you told me to do what hoe
(Mariah) Kelly I don't got one for your shit ok I just came to check on jay
(Bey) for what? Bitch that's my husband
(Mariah) your husband that I fucked and got pregnant by
(Bey) oh really then take a pregnancy test since we at the hospital
(Mariah) I already took one I don't need another
(Kelly) yo ass aint pregnant cus bitch you know me and LaLa is like bees to honey hoe we go together like this *cross her fingers* so you know LaLa already to me you ain't pregnant
(Mariah) *thinking to herself* that bitch
(Bey) you need to go its been along day and my husband is in a coma I don't want to have to add beat a hoe ass in the list either
(Kelly) take you and that quote on quote baby you speak of and get the hell out if here now *giggles* desperate hoe
(Mariah) y'all bitches better watch who y'all calling a hoe shit it aint my fault yo man wanted to fuck me
(Bey) *slaps her* bitch! You wanted to fuck him
(Mariah) *pushes bey*

(Kelly)
Lawd Jesus this hoe done fucked up now it's time to let the beast out

(Kelly) *punches mariah* bitch put yo hands on her again
(Mariah)*holding her face* fuck y'all *leaves*

(Bey)
I understand that Kelly was trying to be there for me but now she only made it look like I was a little bitch and couldn't handle my own and she know I could fight my own battles

(Kelly) bey you ok?
(Bey) *ignores her*
(Kelly) bey you heard me ?
(Bey) Kelly I'm fine *attitude*
(Kelly) why you acting funny
(Bey) because you made me seem like a little bitch I couldn't fight my own battle
(Kelly) I was just trying to be here for you
(Bey) I know but I could of handled it
(Kelly) not while your pregnant
(Bey) oh yeah I kinda forgot I was pregnant Im sorry boo
(Kelly) how you forget you pregnant *giggles* you a mess but let's go imma stay with you until jay is out of his coma
(Bey) *kisses her cheek* thanks Kelly
(Kelly) girl you my sister if you don't give me a real kiss *laughs*
(Bey) *kisses her lips and giggles*

A few hours later in bey and jay room with Kelly and bey

I love Kelly to death we been through so much it's crazy we had a relationship where we could kiss on the lips and don't think nothing of it that's how tight we are .

Kelly was laying on the side of the bed that jay normally lays on and I was laying on the side that I always lay on. We were watching some crazy shit on tv and I couldn't stop thinking about jay

(Bey) Kelly?
(Kelly) *looks at bey* yes?
(Bey) *sad voice* what if jay dies
(Kelly) bey he is not going to die
(Bey) but what if he do my daughter is gonna have to grow up with out her father it's to bad anthony has to do it
(Kelly) look bey trust me he will be fine ok
(Bey) ok also I think imma retire from the industry and just be a mom
(Kelly) you sure I mean you love singing
(Bey) yeah I'm sure

*bey phone rings*

(Kelly) who that?
(Bey) K (k.Michelle I'm sorry I love her so I had to put her in the blog)
(Kelly) you answering it?
(Bey) yeah

Even tho I don't want to talk to nobody imma answer for k. Because she is cool and I know she will be real with me and everything

(Bey) hello
(K.M) wassup bey are you ok I heard what happened to jay he in the hospital
(Bey) yeah he is in a coma
(K.M) he will get better bey I know he will
(Bey) I know so why did you really call me ? *giggles*
(K.M) I called you to tell you about kirk's husband Rasheeda
(Bey) *giggles* his husband really? Lol but what happened
(K.M) ok so me and Ty went to eat and the lesbian couple was there so I was like cool me and Ty sat very close to them then I was talking to Ty and all I said was I'm not scared of a dude with four earrings in his ears this hoe Rasheeda gonna try to get in my face like she wanna fight me and the whole time me and Ty is like I thought he was a man why he can't fight his own battles *ty in the background* this tutu was in too tight
(Bey) *laughing* I like sheeda and I don't think Kirk is gay
(K.M) ok do yo man wear four earrings
(Bey) no
(K.M) and do he act as if you wear the boxers in the relationship
(Bey) no
(K.M) exactly Kirk is the definition of gay but bey I gotta go imma check on you until jay is better I love you
(Bey) love you too *hangs up*

After I hung up the phone with k.michelle I talked to Kelly some more then I had to find something to eat then after I ate I feel asleep

This morning I decided to finally go talk
To everybody since they have been calling me all day

I was meeting my mom and her house in New York and I know jay mom was gonna be there I was super nervous how am I gonna explain this to them????

To be continued