Recovery ????

I walked in the house and I smelled food but I was so sad that I didn't eat to eat. I went and sat on the couch until I was my mom walking towards me

MT: hey baby you hungry
Bey: no
MT: you sure
Bey:yes
MT: bey you can't let this stop you from eating you have a growing baby inside you that need food *yells to gloria* Gloria can you please make bey a plate!!
MG: sure thing!

I sat there staring at the tv that was playing soap operas I hate those so I just put on my headphones and played my very first album I made

Do I really wanna retire from the industry??? I have too so I can be a real mom like my mother was for me. I wouldn't have to do no more interviews, appearances, or shows . I could just spend time with my daughter and maybe move anthony here with me
Anyways I got my food and I ate then I say my plate on the table and took my head phones out so I can tell him what happened

(MT) take your time bey and just tell us what happened
(Bey) *sighs and tells then EVERYTHING* and now he is in a coma
(MG) well they said slight coma so that means he is gonna be better
(Bey) yeah I guess it's just hard knowing he is not here with me because he is in a coma for god only knows how long
(MT) didn't you say Kelly was stating with you until he get better
(bey) yeah... But that don't compare to actually having my husband with me
(MG) we understand beyonce but I believe Shawn will be ok so stop worrying yourself
(Bey) I can't I need to go see him
(MT) you want us to go too
(Bey) *standing up* no thanks
(MT) ok well we will talk to you later bey *they hug her*

On my way to the car I got a call from k. I answered and she wanted me to met her at her house

When I got there I saw Ty and Angie there also I knew some drama went down or was about to go down

(Bey) hey y'all *sits*
(Ty) where yo big ass been?
(Bey) home can't you see I'm pregnant
(Angie) umm yeah it's not hard to miss
(Bey) fuck you
(K.M) where Kelly ?
(Ty) yeah where the industry hoe at
(Bey) ty she is not a industry hoe you know that nicki
(K.M) now you know that title goes to Joseline
(Bey)*laughs* but anyways she had a interview to do also I'm retiring from the industry
(Ty) am I still gone get paid tho
(Bey) yes dumbass
(Ty) shit I had to make sure or me and Joseline going to hit them strip clubs
(Bey) *shakes her head* so why you want me to come over for
(K.M) we going to get something to eat abs chill and we wanted you to come
(Bey) I can't I was on my way to visit jay
(K.M) oh is he better?
(Bey) no I just wanted to see him
(K.M) okay well call us when you leave

I left k's house and went to the hospital and told them everything they needed to know then they walked me to jays room when I walked in I saw him still hooked up to the machine it made me so sad that I didn't even want to say so I left to go hang with then instead

2 WEEKS LATER
It's been two week since jay been in a coma and I am missing him like crazy and even baby girl is missing him

I'm going to see him again today.
It's about 9 at night and Kelly couldn't stay to say because she had a show to do in NJ I couldn't sleep and the baby had been kicking
I changed into some sweats and headed to the hospital

When I walked in it was still the same he was still laying there hooked to the machine I grabbed a chair and put it by his bedside and took his hand and let it just lay there on my stomach I put my hand on top of his

(Bey) see baby girl daddy is right here so she can stop kicking mommy . Daddy is just not feeling well so he is not really being his regular self but that will all change hopefully very soon *eyes watering and lays her head on jays chest* baby I don't know if you can hear me but I love you so much with all my heart and I can't have you leave me by myself I actually need you in my life you are everything to me even tho you might hurt me I still love you . You have always been here for me when ever I needed you
I hate to see you like this I love you jay *kisses his lip*

When I kissed him I could of sworn I felt him try to kiss me back I don't know if I was feeling things or what so I just sat back in the chair and out his hands in my stomach and the baby calmed down

I was starting to dose off then I felt his hand rubbing my belly a little

(Bey) OMG jay baby your back






















To be continued :*