sorry for taking forever to update but here you go!

its the year of 2008. and throughout the years of my life as a singer i learned that its someone that takes over me when i perform . i named her sasha fierce and she is very different to who i am . but she also helped me get over the lost of the baby so i love her. sasha dont normally go home she mainly stay on the stage but sometimes she come home. anthony is 7 now and he decided he wanted to live with my mom because me nor jay was home that much because all the work we do. it was hard for me to say yes but i had to do whats best for him . i always see him on holidays or his birthday or if i miss him then i just go to Houston and see him. im releasing my 3rd album this year. the title is gonna be iam...sasha fierce and its gonna have two parts to it. one part is gonna be songs that relate to my personality and what im about then the second part is gonna be for the party people and more sasha fierce . its march 12 (my birthday lol) and im off today and jay is too well he dont have to call into work because he the boss but me on the other hand had to . me and jay was just gonna chill at home . ive been throwing hints out to jay that i want to get married i even made a song called single ladies telling him that if he like it then he shoulda put a ring on it because this promise ring and working no more . last year in 07 my sister gave birth to a little boy name Daniel julez smith jr. but we call him julez . i've been helping her with the baby whenever she needed help . that little boy is too cute im a proud aunt. kelly and her boyfriend are doing good. my friend usher knows jay and i didnt know until the new years eve party jay had usher was there. i most admit i love usher and i like him a little but i dont see myself cheating on jay with usher or anything like that . 
today me and jay are just staying in the house and really just appreciate each other company.right now we are in the room laying down im wearing his shirt and some boy shorts panties and jay is just in her boxers. we have been laying in bed watching tv all morning we havent got up not once .....well to go to the bathroom and stuff like that .
(bey)babe im hungry
(jay)what do you want
(bey)i dont know
(jay)well order something because i dont feel like cooking
(bey)me either i guess i'll order a pizza what kinda do you want?
(jay)it dosent matter
(bey)kay..
i order me and jay a regular pepperoni pizza . when it came me and jay relaxed and ate it then later that day we decided to get dressed and go do something.. when we came back home i rushed to the bathroom to pee. and when i came back jay was sleep on the couch i looked at him and shook my head and went upstairs and hoped in the shower it was around 8 at night . after i got out the shower i put on the pajamas then crawled into bed and started talking to kelly 
(kelly)wassup
(bey)hey girl
(kelly) whats wrong with you 
(bey) he still aint getting the hints that i wanna be wifey
(kelly)wow that nigga must be really stupid .. you even made a song about it
(bey)i know..
(kelly)woow
i wasnt really sleep i just wanted bey to think i was sleep so i cant get everything perfect . she has been bugging me on getting married and i wanna marry her i really do but i wanna surprise her so thats why im making her think that i dont get the hints she putting out .i went into this room in the house that was empty well it was until i decorated it . it looked perfect. after i got everything perfect. i waited by the door until she got off the phone then when she did . i walked in the room and picked her up and carried her into the room
(bey)baby i thought you were sleep
(jay)just shh
(bey)yes daddy *winks*
jay carried me into the room that usually is empty but the way he decorated it was amazing it was rose peatles everywhere and champange and it was just perfect i loved it all i knew something was gonna happen but i didnt know what im very anxious to find out though.
(bey)jay what is all this for
(jay)you
(bey)me.? but why
(jay)because i love you 
(bey)i know but you never did nothing like this before ... well you have but..
(jay)just hush and relax
(bey)ok 
(jay)so how was you talking to
(bey)kelly
(jay) oh.. are you hungry
(bey)not really
(jay)what beyonce is not hungry
(bey)jay shut up *giggles*
(jay) well ok  i bought you some shoes!
(bey)really?!!!
(jay)yes go look in that box 
i went to where the box was and i opened it i looked at them and they were so beautiful 
i was smiling so hard i was so crazy i kept looking at them then i saw something sparkle on the heel of the shoe it i looked at the heel and it was a ring on it 

i dropped the shoe and put the ring on and i screamed and jumped up and down like a damn 5 year old. then when i got calmed i sat back down smiling . then jay took the ring off and got down on one knee and asked me to marry him and of course i said yes then i kissed him. it felt good for jay to finally purpose because lord knows i have been waiting to get wifed up . i was so happy i called my mom but she aint answer i called kelly next and she answered it seems she was more happy then i was . after i got off the phone with kelly i went and sat on jay lap and kissed him being now that we are engaged it seems i love him more . we kissed for awhile then of course it turned into something sexual but i dont really wanna get into detail just know it was some of the best sex we ever had and i mean the best . we layed there for awhile then i finally gained the strength to get up and take another shower and jay joined me . after we took a shower we layed in the bed and talked about wedding planning and stuff but we both agreed to have the wedding april 4th because first of april is the 4th month of the year and 4 is our number and 4+4=8 so i think you get it and also on april 4 of 2004 was the first time we made love so that is a speical date . it was about 12 and i wasnt sleepy but jay was so i decided to go to kelly house because i know her ass aint sleep 

i was texting her on the way there to let her no i was coming over but she wasnt texting back . i got in the car and headed to her house but first i stopped by mcdonalds and got me something to eat. after that i went to her house and that girl had me knocking on her door for about 10 minutes she lucky that its spring and it wasnt that cold . after she let me in i sat on the couch and ate my food 
(kelly)so you only bought yourself food
(bey)im pretty sure you have a fridge full of food
(kelly)and what if i didnt
(bey)then you would have been outta luck 
(kelly)your such a bitch
(bey)maybe so
(kelly)anyways why you here
(bey)maybe becuase i wanted to see you 
(kelly)yea right ..now what is the real reason
(bey)im so excited about the wedding and i cant sleep 
(kelly)ohhh.. you wanna go out some where 
(bey)like a club 
(kelly)mmhhmm
(bey)but its already 12 and i dont have nothing to wear
(kelly)you can wear something of mine
(bey)ok then lets go 
(kelly)ok
(bey)wait nevermind i dont want to 
(kelly)ughh why
(bey)i dont really feel good
(kelly)aww what wrong
(bey)my head hurts
(kelly)do you want some medicine
(bey)yes
(kelly)ok
kelly went to get me some medicine then i got a text from usher asking me what is was doing tonight and i told him i was at kelly house they know each other . he told me he was in town and he was coming over . when kelly came back i took the medicine and told her usher was coming over and she said that was cool. while we was waiting on usher we was watching some stupid show kelly like to watch then usher go here. we stared drinking alot and it was around 2 in the morning . kelly started smoking and i dont really mess around with weed i tried it a few times but i dont like it but anyways it came around 4am and everyone was WASTED 
(kelly) i have a idea
(usher)wassup
(kelly)all 3 of us should have a minaj
(bey)*eyes get big* now you know jay will kill me 
(kelly)he will never know and besides we probably wont even remember this
(usher)im down
(bey)i dont know
(kelly)beyonce you need to take a chance you might even like it *winks*
(bey)your so gay kelly *laughs* but i guess im in
(kelly)ok yay
we started off by me and kelly kissing on each other and for some reason i liked it and i really didnt care that me and kelly was like sisters and if we was sober we wouldnt even think to do this but hey, while me and kelly was kissing she unbutton my pants and stuck her hands in my panties which caused me to jump a little and kelly giggled. i was still kissing her while she was gently fingering me and i was slightly moaning every now and then i would look at ush and he was licking all on his lips . i must admit i am nervous this is my first time doing this . about a few minutes later i felt sasha kick in and take over she took kelly and shirt off and kissed her from her neck down to her navel then she took her pants off and panties and well you know what she did sasha is not afriad to anything so she was doing everything . after she ate kellz kelly did the same to sasha which made her wet as ever all you could really hear was moaning . after a while usher joined well kelly road him while sasha just sat there looking fingering herself then it was a knock on the door which caused us all to stop . kelly ran up to her room to get a robe and while she did that usher was kissing on me . when kelly came back down she went to open the door and the next thing i hear was her screaming my name i got so nervous because i knew it was probably jay at the door and he might have seen usher car outside


TO BE CONTINUED 

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